Marriage Plan

Hi,
I’m turning 17+6 soon. I just can’t believe that I’m this old. Lol.
Some days ago, my friends and I went out to break fasting together. One of some issues we were talking about was to get married in a young age. *blushing*
At that time I couldn’t believe of what I heard, because of what I knew before, one of them doesn't have any plan when she would like to get marry (she didn't put any target) while the other one was planning to get married when she reached 25 years or even older. But then they were suddently like “we want to get married in a young age (in the next 1 or 2 years) but we don’t have any boyfriend yet.” XD *tebar-tebar kode*

I don’t even know what I really want. I want to get marry in a young age, but somehow I have my own trauma of getting married cause I’m afraid my family would turn out like my parents. Naudzubillah… However I think I have to finish my study before I get marry, unless I aint gonna have a baby until I graduate from my degree though I don’t think its right to postpone the descent, right? So yeah, I don’t put a target in the next 2 years. I might change my mind tho', if one day I met the right one that can make me believe in him that we can spend our life together. Cause we will never know God’s plan. He knows what's best and I believe that the right one will come at the right time. :)

This and that

Yandra and I went to watch movie together this afternoon. We watched Step Up Revolution and we really loveeeeee it, cause the movie was soooooo great. Yandra is a friend who knows me the most, even my bad and dark sides :p We talked about many things; family, schoolmate, teacher, work, etc. Aha, we talk about love and men too.

We both agreed that a man who gives us a hope without any intention to stay and be with us (even if he wants to stay but dunno how) he better leaves us alone. The feeling grows more and more everytime he tries to contact us (at first, it makes us feel good, but soon it ended up hurting us even more). Moreover, we all know that we cant be together with him (for some time, maybe?). Hmm, you guys may see it as a judgment, I know. But that's how we really feel and whats on our mind.

*The situation might happens vice versa*

We, especially yandra and I, are in the same condition right now. The difference is she's brave enough to talk to him and showing him that she's offended with him.

I should accept and understand my current situation. I know that I ain't ready yet in a marriage, but I also know that being in a relationship (for unmarried woman and man) should be avoided in Islam, so I'll keep on my mind that if I cant be together with someone I love in the present, I have to let him go. My friends must be sick of me saying "I will let him go and I'm gonna move on" whereas I keep staying on the same spot. Well, at least I keep on trying. Let's left the rest to God, yup?

Saya ter-brainwash sama ucapannya Ustadz Felix Siaw yang pernah ngetwit gini "kalo serius cinta mati datangilah wali, bukan deketi putri" dan "lelaki baik mendatangi walimu, dengan kesiapan lahir batin yang bisa meyakinkan walimu untuk melepasmu atau MUNDUR secara jantan"... Disini, yang belum siap itu sudah pasti saya. Kedewasaan usia tidak menjamin tingkat kematangan dan kesiapan batin seseorang, bukan? ☺

By the way, I know its late, but Happy Ied Mubarak 1433H. Minal Aidin Walfa Idzin. Mohon maaf lahir dan batin ya semua. Mohon maaf sekali bila ada kata maupun perbuatan yang kurang berkenan yang kiranya menyinggung hati, baik offline maupun online :) Cheers! 

Graduation Day

Akhirnyaaaaaaa.... hari yang ditunggu-ditunggu selama 3.5 tahun menjadi mahasiswi datang juga : WISUDA!!! Hooraaayyyyy! Hooooraaaayyyy! Resmi lah saya menjadi Bachelor of Law. #hazzeekk

Jadi begini.. Tanggal 23 Juni 2012, pagi hari dimulai dengan ngedumel karena semuanya bangun siang. Bunda dan papa nonton bola, walhasil mereka baru tidur sekitar jam 3 pagi. Untunglah akika bangun jam 5 jadi bisa nyuruh semua buru - buru -_- You know what, kita disuruh ke kampus jam setengah 7 pagi, rumah jauh, dan karena ini hari penting saya harus make up dan segala keribetan cewek lainnya. Akhirnya berangkat jam 7 pagi tapi nggak telat. Acaranya sebenernya cuma sebentar, tapi yang lama justru kata-kata sambutan dari rektor dan orasi ilmiah dari tamu. Huft! (._.)7 

Seneng banget karena akhirnya bisa menyelesaikan kuliah, tapi sedih juga karena harus ninggalin kampus dan teman-teman tercinta. hiks. T^T Tapi Alhamdulillah, semua target-target yang saya tetapin begitu masuk kuliah semua tercapai. Allah is too kind to me, Alhamdulillah. Bangga juga begitu nama saya dipanggil kedepan, orangtua diminta untuk berdiri dan diberi tepuk tangan. :') 

Gonna miss all of them. All of my friends. :'(

Graduatian Day (1)

The graduation day will be held this Saturday, June 23. Yippiii! ♡ Then come the memories of what I've been through for the past 3.5 years during the college : studying, participating in competitions, dll. Ah, how I miss being a student. I'm gonna miss all of my friends and the lecturers. Thank you for being my friends ya Indri, iva, metal, meta, ochan, findi, dea, dhika, indy, didy, thari, lita, ira, hanny, dll. It was my pleasure to spend my college days with all of you. I had so much fun!

A friend named Indri

It was Feb 13th 2012, approx 9 pm, when my friend, Indri, text me. She was asking my permission to upload my picts on her tumblr. I did not have any idea what she was going to do and say, but then I say "it's okay, tapi pilih foto-foto gue yang bagus yaa.. dan juga as long as lo nggak ngisengin gue in your tumblog, otherwise I will kill you!" She was laughing and told me that is impossible and that she's not a kind of that people. hahahaha She was right. I am the one yang selalu ngisengin orang :p An hour later, she DM-ed my twitter and sent me her blog's link. I literally cried when I read her blog. She posted a beautiful post dedicated for me. That was just kinda sweet. At that time, I was hoping she was a boy so that we might in a relationship right now. *vomit* hahahahaha :D Read hers here : Indri's

I'd like to say this to her :

My dearest friend, Indri Hastari, I'd like to say thank you very much for everything. Thanks for your endless help, support and times during our college times. No matter how hard the situation each of us was facing for, we kept supporting each other. I love you, my friend. Kata "makasih" nggak akan cukup buat menggambarkan rasa makasih gue to have you as my friend. You keep pushing me when I was down. You made me believe on my own ability. That I have the ability so I only need my self confidence to make everything work as it planned. There are times when we've had misunderstanding, but we keep on going and supporting each other no matter what happen. 

You even always listened my stories patiently *hugging indri tightly*

We are now finally graduated from college. We will have our own journey, soon. I cried so hard when I read your tumblog, cause it feels like you'd like going to say "goodbye friend, our friendship is over now. We are one step ahead to graduated from college, now is the time for us to end our friendship." That's not true, right? As what I tweeted before, graduated from college is doesn't mean our friendship would be over too. We're friend, no matter what happen. Rite? :')

Indri dan gue selalu bilang ke satu sama lain "teman seperjuangan". Why? We somehow selalu terlibat di hampir semua college matters bareng-bareng. Starting from satu tim jessup, research buat dosen, magang dan hal-hal lainnya. We spent either in good or hard times together, and she keeps beside me. I feel grateful to have her as my friend. To have a friend like her who has the same mission, ambition, and the way we see our life. This is one of many reasons why we are a good friend until now. Both of us are ambitious, we are career-oriented or future-oriented, that's why kita ngeliat our own reflection pada diri masing-masing. :)) 

Here are some of our pictures :

Right after the competition

It was when we're in Bandung to spent our holiday together

It was taken when we stayed overnight di kampus for Jessup competition : Stressfull -_-

Once again, thank you so much Indri Hastari Banon. :') Muah!